Beginnings

Pregnancy, labor, and parenthood have been such a blessing. The entire experience is humbling and so rewarding. I am 3 months into motherhood and, so far, I can say God is so real!

I remember, the first week, postpartum felt like being drunk and hyperaware at the same time. I couldn’t distinguish day from night. I was just happy to be alive and have my newborn in my arms.

Thinking back to it, now I can laugh, but at the time, my emotions were so scrambled. It felt like an endless loop of a movies’ sad ending in my head. Every certain amount of time there were tears filling my eyes. I couldn’t tell if I was sad, angry or happy. I was mostly confused.

I remember feeling there was no way I’m managing any of it by my own strength. It was God. I couldn’t walk due to the stitch and the pain. I couldn’t sit without it hurting. How I was able to get up, pick up my crying baby, to sooth him every day, is proof that God exists and he loves us so much.

I remember my husband and his family were so helpful. And, when my mom finally arrived, it was like a weight was lifted. Slowly, I learned to laugh again and life went on. Even though it felt like it never would.

Prayer of the day!

Lord, thank You for getting me through the toughest, happiest moment of my life. Thank you, for caring for my family and I. Thank you, for the mothers out in the world. I pray you be with us, being our fortress and blessing us with wisdom and intelligence. In the name of Jesus. Amen!